Scene by scene. Shouldn't write when I have a headache, but then, sometimes I'm just too compelled to write. It'll be interesting to see how much of the structure changes once the story is recorded.
Posted 6:04:03 PM:: home
___________ Friday, February 07, 2003
Writing is surprisingly not unlike slowing time down.
Posted 10:31:38 AM:: home
___________ Thursday, February 06, 2003
"What is also interesting is that each human being has a totally unique worldview, with its private contradictions and even small insanities." From an essay by Bill Carey quoting Douglas Hofstadter.
The essay reminded me of a critical moment during my grad studies when I looked at my advisor and near hysterically questionned, "but if everyone constructs their own realities, how is understanding or communication even possible!?" She just looked at me with a strange concern. I don't remember her answer.
The writing is on the backburner to make room for some thinking about my characters and their motivation. Getting to the end isn't the point, I'm slowly realizing, nor is constructing the story, seeing as I have plot points galore. I'll let you know what the point is once I figure that out.
Posted 10:36:46 AM:: home
___________ Monday, February 03, 2003
After three days of busy, draining nights at work, I decided to simply read this morning. If the writing isn't there, I can't force it. After an entire day of catching up on the news, listening to music, reading the Paris Journals by Flanner and fiddling around on the internet, I felt a strange pull back into the story. At first, I thought I'd simply work on character issues as I'd decided that was the problem, and in a sense, I did, except instead of it being an out of context exercise, I managed to write another scene, the ending of which is leading to the next plot point where Zoe will almost meet Daniel.
No big sighs of relief, though. There's still a lot of work ahead. At least I know now that I can juggle the job of paying my rent and the job of writing. Somewhere in there, I need to start looking at paid writing gigs, except that building that sort of freelance career is so time consuming, I'm not sure I'll have the leftover creative energy to work on my fiction.
Lots of "except that". Feeling conditional. What does all this depend upon?
Me. My motivation.